OK, so I've not posted in ages, but I've had parental issues, and the Chronic Fatigue has gotten worse. :(
I have however talked to two specialists about the condition. The first said that I was a textbook example, but the second says I am just depressed. Well, possibly, but that came as a RESULT of not being able to go out and do things. Ah well I will give the anti depressants a try. I'm not holding my breath though.
The reason for the Chronic Fatigue though, that's more complex. Yet, so very simple. :S My biological father sexually abused my sister and I as babies, so we were taken away, and I was adopted while my sister wasn't. My adoptive parents then proceeded to physically and mentally abuse me, making me feel that I wasn't good enough, that I would never be good enough for them. Then when I was seven, my adoptive brother started to sexually abuse me, which lasted for two years. When my parents finally found out, they told me that under no circumstances was I to tell anybody about it, as it would get my brother into trouble. The way they treated me as a result of finding out what my brother had done to me, made me feel as though the situation was my fault, not his.
This treatment of me continued til I left home, and still carried on after this. It was only after starting to work at a local restaurant that I realised how wrong their treatment of me was.
In August 2007, things got worse. A girl I was friends with attacked me, really viciously, giving me nightmares for months. A week or two later, I found out that my biological mother had died suddenly. Then at the end of August, on my birthday, my adoptive parents told me that they had cancer, while the next day, my ex dumped me "because he loves me". These events triggered the Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, which has left me as good as bed bound, unable to focus on things, and it's driving me mad!
I'm getting there though... Sort of... :/
